There is a mental state
I strive to achieve a homeostatic state a humming a lull like those alpha wave tapes they sold in the 60's
I need to hear that in my head all day. Instead of the clanging of my thoughts and the clashing of my
wants versus what I should do need to do and the sad, bright violins from "Sunshine" so melancholy
so consistent that remind me how it is not to have anyone understand
"She made my heart beat in a Now/Now time signature" -Mos Def
Happy birthday to me! I'm dedicating my year to living in the now... in the name of the wonderful memories I'll extract from them to take with me when I go. Now is all we have. Yesterday is gone. Tomorrow - we only have marginal say in what happens.... the only thing we can really control is NOW.
