There is a mental state
I strive to achieve a homeostatic state a humming a lull like those alpha wave tapes they sold in the 60's
I need to hear that in my head all day. Instead of the clanging of my thoughts and the clashing of my
wants versus what I should do need to do and the sad, bright violins from "Sunshine" so melancholy
so consistent that remind me how it is not to have anyone understand
I've been enjoying this married phenomenon too much to sit in front of a computer when I could be holding audience with this fascinating new human being that is a part of me... my husband *still get chills when I say it, think it, read it, write it... * He's amazing to me. Because of all the women in the world he chose me. And I'm flabbergasted. But I'm truly honeymooning in his presence. Every day is a wonder how he wants to lay with me in the same bed, or watch tv with me. Or joke with me... or tickle me... or ask me what's wrong. He cares so much... I'm blessed....
So my blogging has suffered... and for that... I beg your forgiveness... (press play)
