There is a mental state
I strive to achieve a homeostatic state a humming a lull like those alpha wave tapes they sold in the 60's
I need to hear that in my head all day. Instead of the clanging of my thoughts and the clashing of my
wants versus what I should do need to do and the sad, bright violins from "Sunshine" so melancholy
so consistent that remind me how it is not to have anyone understand
I had a really nice weekend. It was filled with entertainment, love and companionship. And the options from the meeting with the Dr. on Friday have left me with much more to contemplate about my health, my future, my progeny.
But, alas - I'm tired and need to sleep to deal with the day ahead of me.
