There is a mental state
I strive to achieve a homeostatic state a humming a lull like those alpha wave tapes they sold in the 60's
I need to hear that in my head all day. Instead of the clanging of my thoughts and the clashing of my
wants versus what I should do need to do and the sad, bright violins from "Sunshine" so melancholy
so consistent that remind me how it is not to have anyone understand
No matter how young you are when you hear it - it always seems to offer a nugget of wisdom when you find that you've been duped again. When you think you may have found someone who makes you believe that "too good to be true" might not apply to all things that are too good - you are awakened by the fact that everyone is human. No one has the perfect set up for ANYTHING.
Period.
So... you either settle for imperfection. Or you don't settle... And resign to not be satisfied.
