There is a mental state
I strive to achieve a homeostatic state a humming a lull like those alpha wave tapes they sold in the 60's
I need to hear that in my head all day. Instead of the clanging of my thoughts and the clashing of my
wants versus what I should do need to do and the sad, bright violins from "Sunshine" so melancholy
so consistent that remind me how it is not to have anyone understand
I love the feeling of my body changing for the better. I'm rested. Things are functioning well. It's slimming and I feel much healthier. And I love my hour walk. It's one hour of total peace in the midsts of my confusion
