There is a mental state
I strive to achieve a homeostatic state a humming a lull like those alpha wave tapes they sold in the 60's
I need to hear that in my head all day. Instead of the clanging of my thoughts and the clashing of my
wants versus what I should do need to do and the sad, bright violins from "Sunshine" so melancholy
so consistent that remind me how it is not to have anyone understand
Dhrama (off the cover of the R.Kelly vs. His Brother Beef DVD) *sigh*
This weekend was that. D-RAMA. But I'm not letting it dampen me. I'm pushing on. I'm over the hump of many trips and days away from work keeping me unfocused and I'm back in the saddle.
I'm also COMPLETELY fried tonight and have zero energy left. So I'm gonna use the last bit to get me in the bed.
