There is a mental state
I strive to achieve a homeostatic state a humming a lull like those alpha wave tapes they sold in the 60's
I need to hear that in my head all day. Instead of the clanging of my thoughts and the clashing of my
wants versus what I should do need to do and the sad, bright violins from "Sunshine" so melancholy
so consistent that remind me how it is not to have anyone understand
I LOVE it. Nothing would make me happier than to live in Alaska or... or just maybe further up north or Canada where it snows often. Something about the blanket of silence that it lovingly wraps the city in is meserizing to me. It just insulates sound, and then of course... not a million folks are running around in the street... and for once - everything is quiet. At peace. Asleep. Then is my time to go out an play :-D I used to love going into the snowstorm at night and just enjoying the pink glow of the street lamps on the snow and making fresh snowsteps where where were none. Not even throwing the snow balls AT anyone but throwing it up in the air and seeing the millions of ways the snow would twinkle to the ground. But most of all just sitting quietly IN the snow. It's so tranquil and hypnotic to me. I looked out my window today and started cheesing like a crazy person. But knowing I can't go out in it, because I have a wedding to go to today and I can't ruin my hair. If it wasn't for that though...
