There is a mental state
I strive to achieve a homeostatic state a humming a lull like those alpha wave tapes they sold in the 60's
I need to hear that in my head all day. Instead of the clanging of my thoughts and the clashing of my
wants versus what I should do need to do and the sad, bright violins from "Sunshine" so melancholy
so consistent that remind me how it is not to have anyone understand
Lately I've been waking up on time... like... 6:45... But completely befuddled as to my whereabouts or how long I've been asleep or generally anything. I'm a little worried by this. Could it be that my sleep is so blissful that I wake up so suddenly and have to reorient? Or is it something else?
I noticed that since I get up earlier, i feel less tired. But this not knowing where I am thing... it's disturbing a little.
