There is a mental state
I strive to achieve a homeostatic state a humming a lull like those alpha wave tapes they sold in the 60's
I need to hear that in my head all day. Instead of the clanging of my thoughts and the clashing of my
wants versus what I should do need to do and the sad, bright violins from "Sunshine" so melancholy
so consistent that remind me how it is not to have anyone understand
I learned that I look damned good in a mask for a masquerade ball
I learned that the stronger you initiate a hug, the better it is on both parts
I learned that some folks make aging look like... it isn't agony.
I learned that at 70 after your children have married and your husband has passed, you can still dance a fox trot and smile if you want to
I learned that I enjoy the company of others and especially helping others
I learned that after a year of being engaged, I still feel giddy about the day that he proposed
I learned that all my memories of high school are STILL dear and close to my heart.
I learned that project heat is a MUTHER FUCKER
I learned that I could cram 3 or 4 things into one weekend day and still feel rested when its over
I learned that if I put my mind to it, I can drink an entire 2 litre of Schwepps Ginger Ale.
I learned that no matter HOW MUCH YOU CLEAN, roaches will persevere. And there is MUCH to be learned from their resilency. Gotdayumed maggots *grumble grumble*
I learned that disease can strike quickly and come frighteningly close to taking a close loved one OR even a marginal acquaintance away... and make you SO MUCH more loving when you do see them again.
I learned that at 31, I can still make new great friends
I learned that at 31, I can still look up to people and aspire to be more than I am
I learned that I'd have more leverage to borrow the car if I had a license.
I learned that daylight savings time can screw up your body clock something aweful...
