There is a mental state
I strive to achieve a homeostatic state a humming a lull like those alpha wave tapes they sold in the 60's
I need to hear that in my head all day. Instead of the clanging of my thoughts and the clashing of my
wants versus what I should do need to do and the sad, bright violins from "Sunshine" so melancholy
so consistent that remind me how it is not to have anyone understand
Ready? I spent my morning getting ready for you... I woke up and peeled the sheets away from my body the way you do when you take me up in your arms I brushed my hair into a ponytail, perfect for you to hold on to when passions rise I passed the iron over my dress and felt the heat of your touch run up the side of my thigh I turned the shower on and stepped into the stream of warmth and felt your embrace wash all over my body. I lotioned my skin and felt you massaging me cajoling me convincing me... I clothed so you could strip me...
