There is a mental state
I strive to achieve a homeostatic state a humming a lull like those alpha wave tapes they sold in the 60's
I need to hear that in my head all day. Instead of the clanging of my thoughts and the clashing of my
wants versus what I should do need to do and the sad, bright violins from "Sunshine" so melancholy
so consistent that remind me how it is not to have anyone understand
I'm home sick today. And all the grownups that are at work don't have time to play with me. LMAO! That's how it feels. Not like I'm not sitting here working my damned self. But everyone seems so otherwise occupied with everything else. I'm just totally out of the loop. OH well. R told me that me being sick is making me ultra sensitive. That's probably the case. I guess I should go lay down or something. *Sigh*
