There is a mental state
I strive to achieve a homeostatic state a humming a lull like those alpha wave tapes they sold in the 60's
I need to hear that in my head all day. Instead of the clanging of my thoughts and the clashing of my
wants versus what I should do need to do and the sad, bright violins from "Sunshine" so melancholy
so consistent that remind me how it is not to have anyone understand
Reaching out and reaching no one i screamed your name into a vacuous abyss and gave myself a heartache i ultimately tried to see beyond you but you were directly in my line of sight looking through me as you approached only noticing me because i was in your way
