There is a mental state
I strive to achieve a homeostatic state a humming a lull like those alpha wave tapes they sold in the 60's
I need to hear that in my head all day. Instead of the clanging of my thoughts and the clashing of my
wants versus what I should do need to do and the sad, bright violins from "Sunshine" so melancholy
so consistent that remind me how it is not to have anyone understand
After much driving and flying around, I'm finally home. I don't really have too much to say. I slept on most of the planes because I was completely tuckered out from the weekend. I'm sitting here now, thankful that I've given myself the option of a short week. I really don't have much to do this week, ceptin for work... trying to find something new... and doing my sidehustle. It's a good thing too, because if this mood is lasting - I don't really WANT to be bothered by anything. Not gonna force any words. I'll just sign off now...
