There is a mental state
I strive to achieve a homeostatic state a humming a lull like those alpha wave tapes they sold in the 60's
I need to hear that in my head all day. Instead of the clanging of my thoughts and the clashing of my
wants versus what I should do need to do and the sad, bright violins from "Sunshine" so melancholy
so consistent that remind me how it is not to have anyone understand
I'm deliriously tired right now but I had to put this thought down before I went to sleep. And what a thought to go to sleep on. I was watching Inside the Actor's Studio and they were interviewing Johnny Depp, who, I guess unlike I was expecting (for whatever reason) is a mysteriously well adjusted and balanced human being. They asked him... "What would you like God to say when he sees you come through the Pearly Gates?" Johnny's response...
"Wow!"
Excellent! I LOVE that answer, I'd steal it but it's too good for me to take credit for it. But most certainly something to strive for. *sigh* Off to bed!
