There is a mental state
I strive to achieve a homeostatic state a humming a lull like those alpha wave tapes they sold in the 60's
I need to hear that in my head all day. Instead of the clanging of my thoughts and the clashing of my
wants versus what I should do need to do and the sad, bright violins from "Sunshine" so melancholy
so consistent that remind me how it is not to have anyone understand
Everyone around me seems like they're passionately in love today. This morning on the train, every man was singing. Some sweet tune of love with clear crisp voices wrought with dedication. Working at the winefest this evening, this older couple... they had to be at least 50... snuck into the back of one of the display SUV's and made out... right in the middle of everything. I couldn't even hate on them. If they’re empassioned about each to that point after this long, why attempt to stifle it? It's inspirational. But the stray thought did cross my mind that maybe they're not married. Maybe they snuck out from their significant others... and this was their stolen moment. Seems like stolen moments always seem to be more precious than the ones you earn... or the ones you expect. Strange. But while all this love was swirling around my head, I could only think about one thing... ending this week, getting home... sleeping as late as I could... and not being bothered with ANYONE. I've settled up all debts and I'm ready to be carefree for 2 more weeks till I'm indebted again.
