There is a mental state
I strive to achieve a homeostatic state a humming a lull like those alpha wave tapes they sold in the 60's
I need to hear that in my head all day. Instead of the clanging of my thoughts and the clashing of my
wants versus what I should do need to do and the sad, bright violins from "Sunshine" so melancholy
so consistent that remind me how it is not to have anyone understand
So, I'll dispense of the details as to why it was late. But the delivery of my custom arcade (provided by the good folks at SoulShot Studios) gift was delayed by a day and some. I was supposed to get it Christmas Eve, but unfortunately, it didn't materialize till midnight last night (today...really). And there are still a couple of things that I need to do to it. But it works good for the most part. Enough for my baby to be completely enthralled with it. I don't think he even reall knows where he is anymore.... LMAO! Which is MY Christmas gift. I waited to see that look on his face since October.
He says he's in awe with it. Earl is so reserved with me. I don't know if he's like that all the time, but he's so quiet and not super animated. I've seen him be. And I guess I was expecting this big reaction from him. But the eaction he's given... I know he loves it... and he's excited about it. I think I made the right choice :)
