There is a mental state
I strive to achieve a homeostatic state a humming a lull like those alpha wave tapes they sold in the 60's
I need to hear that in my head all day. Instead of the clanging of my thoughts and the clashing of my
wants versus what I should do need to do and the sad, bright violins from "Sunshine" so melancholy
so consistent that remind me how it is not to have anyone understand
I have been truly blessed this weekend. I have so much love around me. I don't even have words to articulate. Pictures say it all! The revered James E. Ravenell was kind enough to be the photographer for my affair: My 30th Birthday. My sweetie baby and my Max were all responsible.
Blessings abound! I don't want to gush... I have to get back to reality tomorrow... so I guess I should start now. But 30 is looking FIIIIIINE! I like it!