There is a mental state
I strive to achieve a homeostatic state a humming a lull like those alpha wave tapes they sold in the 60's
I need to hear that in my head all day. Instead of the clanging of my thoughts and the clashing of my
wants versus what I should do need to do and the sad, bright violins from "Sunshine" so melancholy
so consistent that remind me how it is not to have anyone understand
YES! It is here and I'm alive and well..
it is a GLORIOUS FALL DAY, just the way I always love my Birthday to be.
I am tingly this morning. I just feel really good and happy and loved and blessed. Whatever this day will bring I know it will be FABULOUS! I can't wait to see what it yields!
I wish more people had the day off WITH me so I didn't have to go it alone, but I'm okay. I don't mind being with me. I'm alright with hanging out with Victoria for a few more years :) She's turned out to be someone I downright love :)
And I look forward to tonight. Whatever my baby has planned. He's wonderful. Called me at midnight to wish me a happy birthday. EVERYTHING I prayed for. GOD does certainly answer prayers. Just in HIS time.
Gosh, I've never felt my heart this open to life before. This is a really great feeling!!!!!! I woke up smiling.
Thank you Lord! I know this year is going to be better than all the rest!!
