There is a mental state
I strive to achieve a homeostatic state a humming a lull like those alpha wave tapes they sold in the 60's
I need to hear that in my head all day. Instead of the clanging of my thoughts and the clashing of my
wants versus what I should do need to do and the sad, bright violins from "Sunshine" so melancholy
so consistent that remind me how it is not to have anyone understand
I was so out of it today. I didn't get a chance to go to the office today. I ate something that was horrid the night before last. Got so sick that I DREAMT about getting up and hurling. And then I fulfilled my dream at 3:00 in the morning when I got up and did exactly that. I felt so crappy all day. But never was so focused on my work before. Got a lot done today.
Emotionally this was a quiet day. I'm looking forward to just resting and getting into tomorrow.
