There is a mental state
I strive to achieve a homeostatic state a humming a lull like those alpha wave tapes they sold in the 60's
I need to hear that in my head all day. Instead of the clanging of my thoughts and the clashing of my
wants versus what I should do need to do and the sad, bright violins from "Sunshine" so melancholy
so consistent that remind me how it is not to have anyone understand
So I went with Max to get fitted for her Wedding dress. I took me a second to get used to the idea that we were really there looking for a dress for her. Amazing. This is my very first friend that I'm marrying off and it's weird. I love the feeling and I feel so old to be just experiencing it for the first time. I posted up some pictures of it here.
Then we all (Max, my brother, Rodney and myself) went to eat at TGIFridays... thinking it would be cheaper because we are all suffering monetarily. We spent just as much money there as we would have at our favorite restaurant - Deborah's. *sigh* Lesson learned.
I'm gonna get some sleep so I can try to go into the office tomorrow. Pray for me!
