There is a mental state
I strive to achieve a homeostatic state a humming a lull like those alpha wave tapes they sold in the 60's
I need to hear that in my head all day. Instead of the clanging of my thoughts and the clashing of my
wants versus what I should do need to do and the sad, bright violins from "Sunshine" so melancholy
so consistent that remind me how it is not to have anyone understand
Well, I popped awake this morning at about 8:00 and wondered why I couldn't go back to sleep. I stared at the ceiling and this song kept circling in my head:
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K-dot did that for his son a while back. But I think it's so beautiful. Like...makes you wanna rush out and have a kid...almost. But maybe because I know we'll be hanging with Jess today. I really love her. I hope life learns to treat her a little better. On the phone the other day and going through asking how she's doing in school and she recounted tales of being on the honor's list and such. And I said, "I'm really glad to hear that! I'm proud of you Jess!" and there was silence on the other end. Maybe she didn't know what to do with that information. I hope I'm not the first person to ever say it to her. Yet and still... I'll continue saying it.
