There is a mental state
I strive to achieve a homeostatic state a humming a lull like those alpha wave tapes they sold in the 60's
I need to hear that in my head all day. Instead of the clanging of my thoughts and the clashing of my
wants versus what I should do need to do and the sad, bright violins from "Sunshine" so melancholy
so consistent that remind me how it is not to have anyone understand
Your browser doesn't support the EMBED tag, but you can still listen to the music on this page by <a href="http://www.thoughtsdaughter.com/sounds/whatcanisay.mp3">clicking here.</a> Van Hunt - What Can I Say For Millicent
"Cause I love to hate the feeling...
don't want to deal with the Morning after...
What can I say to keep you down. What can I say to keep you down.
What can I say to keep your love around me?"
I was reading the Onion yesterday on the way home to lift my spirits. I found this editorial in there that had me rolling. Seemed like a letter from all my ex's at one point or another after the relationship to me. LMAO! Get a good laugh: The Onion : Editorial by Smoove
I need some calm today. Yesterday was entirely too busy and too critical. My brother constantly calling to lean on me emotionally is taking it's toll. I think that before he called, I was in a good mood. Now, I don't remember anymore. I just remember being frustrated. Almost to the point where I don't want to pick up the phone. I'm at my wits end. I've said all I can say. NOTHING comforts him. *SIGH* and it's not even a life or death situation, you know? It's just... life. Life does things like this.
Anyways. Today is a half day for me... WHEEE!!! So I go in, crunch these promotions, and head home :) Couldn't be a better thing :) But I still have to work tomorrow *sigh* I guess it's all good.
