There is a mental state
I strive to achieve a homeostatic state a humming a lull like those alpha wave tapes they sold in the 60's
I need to hear that in my head all day. Instead of the clanging of my thoughts and the clashing of my
wants versus what I should do need to do and the sad, bright violins from "Sunshine" so melancholy
so consistent that remind me how it is not to have anyone understand
Although I'm looking fantastical... my legs have been the weapons of mass destruction uncovered... I'm feeling under the weather. Just that quick, from floating on a cloud to questioning what I've known to be true. Good think I've documented everything so I can be reminded of all the beautiful things that God has bestowed on me... and reminders that he's sent through signs. I pray that will help pull me out of the funk faster.
As for me right now, I'll pray and hope for the best
I also pray that my brother wins the Mega Millions tonight. If anyone deserves to, he does. I wouldn't know what to do with it. I fear I've lost the ability to dream big.
