There is a mental state
I strive to achieve a homeostatic state a humming a lull like those alpha wave tapes they sold in the 60's
I need to hear that in my head all day. Instead of the clanging of my thoughts and the clashing of my
wants versus what I should do need to do and the sad, bright violins from "Sunshine" so melancholy
so consistent that remind me how it is not to have anyone understand
A meeting I thought I had at 9:30... is actually every OTHER week. And this is the off week! *YESSSSSSSSSSS*
The jobbie Job is paying for breakfast this morning.
I weigh in today (even though I think I may have gained weight) but I'm keeping my head up and not getting discouraged!
The gym next door that I've been sweating since I started working here is coming to make a presentation. If their rates are reasonable... I can get my workout on... TAKE A SHOWER (unlike Curves) AND get my boxing in.
Me and My baby are back in a good place. Bad places really suck for us. But the good places are GREAT! I even fantasized about him on the train this morning in mid awareness... It was cool!
The rollercoaster is on the hike. I hope it just evens out :)
