There is a mental state
I strive to achieve a homeostatic state a humming a lull like those alpha wave tapes they sold in the 60's
I need to hear that in my head all day. Instead of the clanging of my thoughts and the clashing of my
wants versus what I should do need to do and the sad, bright violins from "Sunshine" so melancholy
so consistent that remind me how it is not to have anyone understand
Watching many re-runs of SATC. Not motivated to do my work at all... but don't want to go to sleep and miss out on what I COULD be doing with my day. My baby is away, saving the day with the Nupes. I'll probably just get some sleep.
The weigh-in proved nothing for me today. Just that I didn't gain OR lose. I'm at exactly the same place. But they say that I'll se a change next week. So I'll just hold on and remain consistent. Remain focused.
