There is a mental state
I strive to achieve a homeostatic state a humming a lull like those alpha wave tapes they sold in the 60's
I need to hear that in my head all day. Instead of the clanging of my thoughts and the clashing of my
wants versus what I should do need to do and the sad, bright violins from "Sunshine" so melancholy
so consistent that remind me how it is not to have anyone understand
So it showed up last night. Just as I was planning a quiet interlude with the Mr. I swear I was looking SO forward to it. Then it just... showed up. No warning shot... Just... BOOM... My body has the worst timing. *SIGH* So I've been sick all of Easter Morning. And he'll be in Arkansas by the time it's over.