There is a mental state
I strive to achieve a homeostatic state a humming a lull like those alpha wave tapes they sold in the 60's
I need to hear that in my head all day. Instead of the clanging of my thoughts and the clashing of my
wants versus what I should do need to do and the sad, bright violins from "Sunshine" so melancholy
so consistent that remind me how it is not to have anyone understand
Not too much happening lately. Life has really been kind of run of the mill lately. Struggle to wake... stagger to work... fight through the day... stay working late... come home exhausted... struggle to sleep. What a life. *sigh*
I was thinking about W & P today. They left for Haiti last night to go get their new family. I'm so anxious for them. I realize it means I'll talk to him less. He'll join other friends of mine down the black hole of family life. Again the exodus of my friends going to adulthood and me just standing a bit still. I marvel at the kind of live that B & Wiz will have when they get up here. They're going to be so well adusted and loved and cared for. They would have never known a life like the one they'll have. There are truly angels in this world.
Looks like I have to put my phone guard back up. Calls are coming through that I don't need to field.
