There is a mental state
I strive to achieve a homeostatic state a humming a lull like those alpha wave tapes they sold in the 60's
I need to hear that in my head all day. Instead of the clanging of my thoughts and the clashing of my
wants versus what I should do need to do and the sad, bright violins from "Sunshine" so melancholy
so consistent that remind me how it is not to have anyone understand
According to Max, this accurately describes how I've been today. And I suppose that is why company can't seem to stay around. I can't get my baby to stick around or spend more than one day a month complete with me. I can't get my best friend to hang with me past the acquisition of an iPod. I can't get a lot of things right now. Maybe it's why I am snarky. It's a viscious cycle.
I hope I wake up less snarky tomorrow. I have a lot of work to do.
