There is a mental state
I strive to achieve a homeostatic state a humming a lull like those alpha wave tapes they sold in the 60's
I need to hear that in my head all day. Instead of the clanging of my thoughts and the clashing of my
wants versus what I should do need to do and the sad, bright violins from "Sunshine" so melancholy
so consistent that remind me how it is not to have anyone understand
If it weren't bad enough that my baby feels like not touching me... I have conjunctivitis with corneal infiltrate.... Pink eye to the layman. So now the rest of the world can't really be bothered with me either. Great. I feel like a leper. I'm so tired and this stupid drop process is going to take a dogs age. A drop every 15 minutes for 5 hours.
WTF??
oh well... it's what I must do in order to get better.
I'm so tired though. So unbelieveably sleepy.
And all pink eye wants you to do ... is close your eyes.
