There is a mental state
I strive to achieve a homeostatic state a humming a lull like those alpha wave tapes they sold in the 60's
I need to hear that in my head all day. Instead of the clanging of my thoughts and the clashing of my
wants versus what I should do need to do and the sad, bright violins from "Sunshine" so melancholy
so consistent that remind me how it is not to have anyone understand
So Biggie and BoneThugs&Harmony are in my background right now as I type. I'm wired tonight. I need to get some sleep for work in the morning. But here I am... bobbing my head. "Who's the killer... me or you?" So I got my hair did tonight. It's growing. I love it. I just need to feel that way about the rest of me (not that it's growing, cause it isn't.... but that I am in love with my body).... slowly and surely. I'm feeling the ramble already. I'm not going to make this another nonsensical blog.
I broke my brain over the dumb gallery that I'm trying to build so I can make my life easier when I have these extravagant events that I decide to take 74 pictures at. But of course it works NOT. Why do I do these things to myself. Staring at one line of code hoping that it changes... but it doesn't... and no matter what I do to it... it outputs the same. *sigh*. I'll try again tomorrow... Or I'll just switch severs... this is bullshit.
Now listening to Ol'Dirty Bastard's I Can't Wait. This has to be the CRAZIEST song I've ever downloaded. I may link this one up so the world can hear it like I'm hearing it.
Your browser doesn't support the EMBED tag, but you can still listen to the music on this page by <a href="http://www.thoughtsdaughter.com/sounds/EverythingMustChange.wma">clicking here.</a>
Okay... this is proof positive that I have NOTHING to say. Besides that I made it through the night... and I hope to make it through tonight... and I need some excitement (not like yesterdays). But like... really earthshattering mindblowing sex. But I have to wait to get that anyways. *sigh* Okay... now I'm going to sleep.
