There is a mental state
I strive to achieve a homeostatic state a humming a lull like those alpha wave tapes they sold in the 60's
I need to hear that in my head all day. Instead of the clanging of my thoughts and the clashing of my
wants versus what I should do need to do and the sad, bright violins from "Sunshine" so melancholy
so consistent that remind me how it is not to have anyone understand
He came back safely THANK GOD. He didn't tell me he caught the earliest flight out... so when I was expecting him to come home at 9:45... He was at my job at 4:15. Cause he caught the 7 AM flight out. What a glorious surprise. I was really dreading the 5:45 call saying "I'm getting on the plane". I just knew it would have been 4 hours of non stop worrying on my part. So I'm really glad to have been spared that. I was so glad I didn't know what to do with myself. I just kept smilin... I know my coworker thought I was crazy.
I had a flood of thought that I was going to blog tonight... but all of it rushed out of my head at the thought of my sweetums... so I'll try again tomorrow :)
