There is a mental state
I strive to achieve a homeostatic state a humming a lull like those alpha wave tapes they sold in the 60's
I need to hear that in my head all day. Instead of the clanging of my thoughts and the clashing of my
wants versus what I should do need to do and the sad, bright violins from "Sunshine" so melancholy
so consistent that remind me how it is not to have anyone understand
"The Sweetest Thing" with Cameron Diaz and Christina Applegate. It's like... stupid. It started off with a message that I thought I needed to hear about dating not so much being about mind games but about boundaries. But it turned into just a slap stick stupid kind of comedy. But I was all drawn in so I just watched it to the end anyways.
Today was quiet. I put together the job description and finished up some work on some sites. Today is empty. Devoid of anything special. That's fine. I need days like this to appreciate days that are over charged with excitement or sadness. Let's see... 3 things that made me smile today: Last night I spent the evening on the phone with my brother going over fun music from back in the day. So I found some songs I haven't listened for a while. He was letting me listen to them on his IPOD today. That made me smile
Someone said that Jessica reminded them of me when I was a kid. That made me smile.
And the sunset tonight... that made me smile. There's a picture of it from the 7 train platform. It was beautiful.
