There is a mental state
I strive to achieve a homeostatic state a humming a lull like those alpha wave tapes they sold in the 60's
I need to hear that in my head all day. Instead of the clanging of my thoughts and the clashing of my
wants versus what I should do need to do and the sad, bright violins from "Sunshine" so melancholy
so consistent that remind me how it is not to have anyone understand
So I'm spending the weekend with him. 3 more days till mine :) I still don't know what to expect. But after last week, I'm not expecting anything anymore. Just waiting and seeing.
I went to the Apollo yesterday and it reconfirmed for me that my people STAY ghetto! I've never seen anything like that before. And they make that place look as big as Radio City Music hall... and really it's smaller than my living room. Whatta hoax. My girl Toni didn't make it to the final judging. But that is only because the audience was so closed minded. She got up there singing a song of her own, so they couldn't sing along or anything. They were just dumb. She was great though. I know she's going to be successful.
Today we're going to start our Tourist in New York Birthday Extravaganza. We are putting together a list of everything that we've never been to in NY and we're going to go check it out. Together. So that should be fun.
I just wanted to post because I haven't in a few days. I've been dog tired lately. But I need to stay focused. I'm reading this book called "Girl, Get Your Money Straight'. And if I can stick to what she's telling me in the book... I could do big things in a very short amount of time. I just have to find the motivation to carry it through for AT LEAST a year. I know I can muster up 5 or 6 months worth motivation. I just have to pray for the other half.
I'll sign in for more later.
(I'm really getting frustrated with Blogger cause I can't seem to get the archives link to work. I feel like pulling my hair out. *sigh*)
