There is a mental state
I strive to achieve a homeostatic state a humming a lull like those alpha wave tapes they sold in the 60's
I need to hear that in my head all day. Instead of the clanging of my thoughts and the clashing of my
wants versus what I should do need to do and the sad, bright violins from "Sunshine" so melancholy
so consistent that remind me how it is not to have anyone understand
I'm surrounded by people who have no broad thoughts or who only want to do things their way. Its so frustrating sometimes.
I think I'm PMSing these days... because everything that is sensitive is sore and swollen... including my emotions. And folks just wanna keep poking at me. It's not fair.
Maybe after I get past this cycle... I'll feel better about the world in general.
So I'm back on the market again... and folks can check my teeth and make sure I'm fertile. I'm back on the Auction block. I'm trying to get another job. Why stay sedentary?
I just got sucked in to this game at HM.com... I played for like... an hour I haven't done that in a minute. It was fun.. but now I'm exhausted and must get some beddy bye :)
